…or not.

So I’ve apparently been fooling myself. The line isn’t getting darker, at all! In fact, I’m almost positive that it’s getting lighter!!! Seriously–it was so faint every time I tested today. Much fainter than yesterday. And I know I didn’t miss it–I’ve seriously been testing every time I use the bathroom at this point. This is so disheartening!

Honestly, I will be so sad if our O+12 attempt isn’t the 12th. Everything was “lined up” for a girl conception! That, and if I ovulate “late”, my fasting will have all been for nothing! Ugh.

But I’ve got to stay positive. I can’t stress out. Stress sways boy, after all 😉

We did another trial run of SU tonight! With a condom this time instead of the cup! Still wasn’t perfect, but it was a LOT easier with the condom than with the cup! I’d have pics to share, but you know, my camera being dead and all.. well.. the cell isn’t good enough to really show anything 😦 I miss my camera 😦 I wish I could figure out what’s wrong with it… sigh.

But I digress! The point was that it seemed like a successful test! Huzzah!

In other news, my husband’s pH is around 8 and mine hovers between 4.5 and 5 😦

Maybe I just wasn’t meant to have a girl!

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pH etc….

So my pH is unfortunately hovering around 4.5/5 😦  My husbands is 8. Hell, even our pasteurized eggs are only 9! This actually really sucks 😦

My pH should be around 4… his should be around 7/7.5 (so he’s closer than I am, at least..) I’m going to start working with lime tampons to see how that changes my pH levels.

Sigh.

I guess it could be worse…

In other news, I’ve decided on a midwife for my prenatal care. Well–I guess it’s a group of midwives.. regardless, I found a place where I feel comfortable (at face value) going to for 40 weeks. Granted, if all goes well with the pregnancy, we’re going to go Unassisted again. That was the best birthing experience ever and we would love nothing more than to have a similar birth for our last. I’m definitely not going to tell them that–as I intend to call them (.. just when it’s too late :x) so they can check him/her over and probably me, as well. I don’t mind that so much. I just prefer to birth alone, on my own. It’s a very private, sacred, special thing to me… having strangers there is anything but comfortable for me. I labored alone for our last baby and woke my husband up in time to “catch” him. It was such an amazing experience for us, both. Our other kids slept through it, completely 🙂 They woke up to a new little 11 pound brother 🙂

If things aren’t going well enough for us to be comfortable with another UC (pre-term labor, breech delivery intimidates me and in the miraculous event that we’d have multiples, if either one of them were breech, I don’t feel I would be able to handle that on my own… that, and general complications that I’ve never had before and hopefully will not), then of course we will go to their birthing center or to the hospital, whichever is warranted.

But I’m going to hope that doesn’t happen 😉