I feel…

Tired.. but not. Like… I feel like I could fall asleep at the drop of a hat–but when I lie down, it takes FOREVER for me to fall asleep 😦 AND when I do fall asleep, I wake up about once an hour!

Heartburn. SO.BAD. Oh, man–I had a glass of milk and a brownie last night and I thought I was going to die. It was horrid.

My nose is getting wider. This is why I’m 99.9999% positive I’m having a boy. The only thing that I have had in common with the rest of my pregnancies.

My cravings vary from sweet to salty but are mostly salty. Honestly, I wish I HAD sweet cravings. I don’t really, though. (I couldn’t even finish the brownie!)

I don’t really have any symptoms. I “feel” pregnant without actually feeling pregnant, if you know what I mean! It’s so weird… but I’m not complaining 🙂

Well.. minus the whole “tired but not” thing… thatis getting old, fast!

We don’t have a nursery–and we co-sleep–but we are tossing the idea of actually having a crib for this little one since our 5th is still co-sleeping and I don’t think I quite trust him to leave him (or her.. hah) alone and not try to pick him/her up 🙂 So… yeah. We are thinking about decorating a bit.. a little nursery “space” in our room. Panda’s! And everything G/N.

We will see, though. 🙂


Sorry this post is so late!!!

I know you have all just been dying to hear more about me 😀 hahaha

Well.. here are the tests (in order) from the last 3 days

The line is definitely getting darker. My only concern is that the last test was a different brand so it’s not much darker. I mean, it’s still darker and you can still easily tell that there’s been progression (and, as such, my hcg +s are likely steadily increasing–especially since I’ve had zero spotting since the first time!)

So.. I am–at this point–confident in saying…


Another awesome thing? The cramping? I’ve determined that it’s not cramping, at all. It’s just the left side of my uterus is sore. And today? It’s hardly sore at all! I’m really starting to feel confident about this baby, now! I think he’s going to stick!!!

My husband is convinced that this is finally our girl after 5 boys.. but I don’t think so. And honestly, after being so afraid that I lost him/her? I will be happy with a healthy, whole baby of either sex!

So yes–I have more to update later.. just SO tired and busy! EDD March 24th–but I think (s)he will be born closer to Daddy’s Birthday (4/10! It would work, you know? Because we found out about him/her on my birthday–it’d be awesome if (s)he was born on his!


Here are the BFPs from today…


I haven’t had any more blood… yet. Still a lot of cramping.. but no more pink. Discharge is fluctuating between egg-white and creamy… cervix, however, is medium-low and soft. Ish.

I did take another test… I couldn’t help myself. The positive is still there. Still faint but–dare I say–stronger than it was. It gives me a small bit of hope. Not much… but something.  At this stage, I just don’t want to get my hopes up 😦

I guess we’ll see. I don’t know if I should go ahead with making an appointment with my new midwife or if I should just wait a month and see what happens.

I guess the good news is that if I am still pregnant, I was swaying fully at the time (minus EGS and Timing) so maybe it’s a girl :p Honestly, though, if I am? At this point, if I am pregnant, I’ll just be happy that the baby is Ok. I won’t even care. This whole thing has put so much into perspective. I went shopping for a new potty for our 2y/o today and stopped by the kids section and the girl stuff was cute, but it didn’t make me ache like it usually does.

Guess that’s progress 🙂

It’s coming…

I am fairly certain that af is coming. Honestly, the left side of my uterus is just crampy and achey today. That’s fine, though–really!  I mean, I DO wish that it would hurry up! All this waiting is so frustrating 😦

Anyway, I have stopped all diets and supplements (I forgot to mention that 😡 sorry!) so we’re absolutely not doing any swaying or anything. We are 100% sticking to our IVF and PGD plans.

Af reallllly needs to get here, though. We want to schedule our new patient meetings ASAP! There’s not a whole lot of time between now and November!

Sorry for the billions of posts, lately! I’m just so excited!!!! (Also, totally confused by my body! Go figure)


My uterus is killing me. As is my lower back. AND I AM SO TIRED!!!

Honestly, you would think that those were pregnancy symptoms, wouldn’t you? But no–all tests are still completely negative. And it’s like–hypothetically–10 dpo. Well, my hypothetical Ovulation d: According to calculators, I ovulated June 30th (according to one calculator) and the other says “some time between June 30th and July 5th”.

So lets hypothetically say that I ovulated on June 30th. We had unprotected, vaginal intercourse only 3 days in June. June 25th, 27th, 28th. Assuming I ovulated on the far spectrum–the 5th of July–we had unprotected, vaginal intercourse only the 6th.

So assuming I ovulated, those God-awful cramps I was feeling on the 3rd of July.. couldn’t have possibly been implantation cramps. That would have been too close to my “ovulation” date. And they absolutely felt too severe for Ovulation cramps–but let’s assume they were–if they were, we completely missed ovulation because the 6th was way too far from the 3rd.

My period was also ridiculously long. 6 days. Six! The 17th through the 22nd.

Yeah. I don’t know what’s up with my body. I wouldn’t mind being pregnant–especially if we were having a girl (har har)–but now that I know 100% we are going to go ahead with IVF/PGD in November if I’m not, well.. it’s hard to want to be, if you know what I mean. Especially since I am 100% positive it would be neither twins, nor a girl 😦 Both things we want.

So of course, I probably am. Well.. not really–all tests are still absolutely negative at 10dpo (I usually am able to test between 8 and 11dpo in the past)

Ah, well. It’s in God’s hands. We did the diet, the supplements. Hell, we even did the negative ions and the hormones, my pH was about 4.5 and my husbands was about 7,  and some old wives’ tales. Timing was probably off (especially since I have NO idea when/if I ovulated!) but as it stands, we did 6 of the 7 sway methods so maybe–if I am pregnant–we tipped the scales an extra percentage, so we’re 1% likely to have a girl instead of 0% likely to have a girl  :p

If I am pregnant and it is another boy.. well.. I will have to deal with that. I will love the little one with all my heart and I won’t wish he was a girl–but I will be excited and eager for us to do IVF/PGD in 2012. I know that knowing that will keep me sane 🙂


I can’t believe it’s been so long since I’ve updated! I’m so sorry about that! We’ve been moving and it’s taking forever to get us all settled in!

Needless to say, EGS is very temporarily on hold–though we have had unprotected sex a few times… (3, 5 and 6 days before my calculated ovulation and 18 hours after. This, of course, is assuming I ovulated at all–something I’m not convinced of.) but so far, all hpt’s have come out negative. I even took a FRER today and that was negative. I will test again with my test strips pretty much for the next 5 days and use one more FRER (maybe…) on the 6th day, then I shall give up hope.

We didn’t do EGS–but we did everything else. Diet, supplements, even timing to an extent, so if I actually was pregnant and we got another boy, I would still feel pretty confident that we’d done our best (minus EGS, of course) with just out and out swaying. I’m not sure that we’ll be doing EGS July, either. And to be quite frank, the diet is getting so old. Ok–I won’t lie. It’s not getting old, it is old. I don’t think that I can keep it up anymore. It’s not that I am hungry all the time–I’m actually kinda full–it’s just the blandness is killing me! We’re also both getting really sick of taking so many pills. Ugh!

It’s so weird.. I feel so pregnant, yaknow? I’m peeing constantly, even though I’ve actually been drinking less than normal (yes, I actually know pretty much exactly how much I drink every day!). I had a little experiment last night. I went to bed thirsty (I generally take a bottle of water to bed with me and sip it throughout the night) and I didn’t have anything to drink two hours before I went to sleep. And I still got up four times to pee during the night! That’s one less than the five times a night it’s been for the past 6 days… but so not worth being thirsty throughout the night!) Honestly? I wake up to pee twice a night max. Once a night is normal. This 4+ times per night thing sucks and it only ever happens when I’m pregnant.

But I’m obviously not 😦 I don’t have any other symptoms. No tender breasts, no sore hips, no nausea, no crazy fatigue (just the normal kind when you have a ton of kids :p). Usually when I’m pregnant, my hips are killing me. Literally killing me before I’m late for my period, my breasts get larger (though to be honest, I’m still nursing, so chances are I won’t notice that, anyway) I guess I could be considered overly tired… I slept like the dead last night (aside from the constant urination), the kids didn’t wake up at all (a first!) and I slept so deeply, it was awesome. Yet I woke up feeling like I hadn’t slept in a week. And all day, at any point, if I didn’t have to watch kiddos all day, I’d have drifted off (Oh, I wish they weren’t past the nap stage…) . Like right now, one kid is still awake and I’m just dragging, even though I haven’t even been up for 12 hours! Literally!

So yeah.. I don’t know what’s going on with my body. Unless it’s just me mentally convincing my body that I’m pregnant (all that positive thinking I’ve been doing!) Whatever it is, it is so frustrating. Ugh.  At this point in time, I just want af to show up so we can start trying. This being in limbo crap sucks!

I will try to keep this updated, now. I’m so sorry! Now that we’re (mostly) moved and settled, I should be able to keep this up again 🙂

ETA: On the 4th of July, I was actually woken up at about 3AM with the most awful cramps. You wouldn’t believe it. It was.. it was just crazy painful. This is what I wrote in my “personal” journal:

My stomach is killing me. Like omg this morning around 3AM I actually woke up because I felt like I was having contractions O_O;; Honestly.. wtf? You’d think I’d be starting my period after that.. but no. Nothing. I have no freaking clue what THAT was. And I’m sore from it, today. Like my stomach is still kinda crampy, though honestly I don’t know WHY. AF isn’t due for some time, seeing as she just ended on the 22nd [after SIX long day. SIX. wtf, body???] I’d say Ovulation pains.. but I’ve never had them before and I don’t imagine they feel like freaking contractions. Plus, my cervix is in the entirely wrong position for ovulation. Mucous is all wrong, too. So yeah. No f***ing clue what’s going on with my uterus these days. I haven’t ovulated in.. well.. ages. Yeah. Anyone have ovulation pain? Does it kinda feel like you’re having contractions? Or has anyone had this sort of pain and know wtf it is? Flabbergasted, here, honestly.

ETA: And no, I don’t think it’s PMSy type cramps. I’ve had those before. These pains do NOT feel ANYthing like that y.y Plus.. yaknow.. like I said before.. I *just* got off a ridiculously LONG period and if I’m starting again ALREADY I demand a refund on my uterus. Srsly.

How weird is that? My friends suggested implantation–one actually said that I’d described how one of her kids felt with implantation. And it was the appropriate time span… so of course, that got me feeling pregnant, even more! But I don’t know. All those negative tests… just.. yeah.

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